This moment

Now I have to admit I so greedy. I keep telling myself I should not like this. However, I just cant leave any moment to think about this.I keep asking myself am I lying to myself? Or just I overthinking or irrational? If time reversed back.... I am not sure what i will going to do....... Why I always like this?

Sorry

I doesnt wanna hurt u friend. I hope you can understand. This thing is very selfish. It not allows to have two winners at the same time but only one. I can only choose one. I know U have sacrified much for me... I also knew tat sometime u did the thing jus for me... but U have to know that in this thing when u give me one I doesnt mean that I have to repay u one. I don wanna hurt u. Maybe u will hate or angry me why not choose u, but this is fate. Sorry fren. I jus wanna say sorry to u for hurting u. If one day we meet again u still angry at me... pls tell me u angry. I wont comment it. sorry. I jus don want to lose u as a fren. I hope one day u can smile to me and talk with me again. Sorry.

When I come to a crossroad

I come to a crossroad where I never come before,

I told myself don be timid,

I told myself be brave,

Both roads are long,

leading me to another roads and roads,

unforseeable consequeences.

I don know which one will bring me happiness and sadness.

I only can do decision base on myself, as layman.